Balance. Finding a way to be or give what’s needed in more than one area at the same time. It isn’t always easy and for me I tend to make it even harder on myself. I’m a perfectionist, an over-thinker and well…a control freak. I don’t like letting go much less admitting I Can’t Do It All.
This week I’ve had to learn to do just that. For months now I have been juggling my roles as Wife, Mother, Blogger and MrsTee. I’ve been spreading myself thin and I am starting to feel it not only emotionally but physically. It’s time to find and reclaim a bit of balance for myself and for the people most important to me – my family.
Do It All.
I think I lost the balance I was once so proud of keeping when I started trying to be the best at everything in every area of my life. You want me to write a post? Sure. Volunteer for the next PTA fund raiser? I’m there. Run that document across town? No problem. Yet in the midst of all the ‘being‘ I started to lose myself and the ability to keep things in the order I thrive on. I started forgetting where I needed to be and where. I thought I could do it all. I was doing things at less than 100% and my quality was suffering because of the quantity of things I tried to do. It was becoming too much.
It wasn’t until this week when my family had to deal with the unexpected that I realized I hadn’t been truly present in any one area because I was too bust trying to be everywhere. I felt guilty and I knew it had to change. So that’s where I am today tonight. 11pm Sunday night and I’m letting go.
[tweetthis]I lost my balance : my quality was suffering because of the quantity I tried to do. #Balance #TheMrsTee[/tweetthis]
Saying No.
This morning I withdrew myself from an opportunity I wanted so much yet I knew if I went forward with it I would either drop the ball somewhere else or end up not giving it the attention it deserves. I had too much on my plate and it was time to refocus and adjust. Sometimes finding balance means saying No even when all you want to do is say Yes. I am still upset BUT I know that at this time it was the right decision to make.
Yes I can multitask but I have to be smart and thoughtful. I have to realize that the things I choose to do must work in harmony with each other. No one thing taking away from the other. In order for me to truly be the wife, mother and woman I need to be this is the only way for me to find my balance.
[tweetthis]Sometimes finding balance means saying ‘No’ when all you want is to say ‘Yes’. #Balance #TheMrsTee[/tweetthis]
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