I was talking with a friend today and she was telling me about her journey, her Christianity and her purpose. It was amazing sitting there hearing her speak things I’ve felt so often. To hear her share from the heart reminded me of the passion I thought I’d lost.
She told me how she was at a point where she began to over think what she was doing. It was creating a block in her life and her creativity. Her solution: Just Write. Pretty simple right? Yet when you’ve been holding back on something that used to bring you joy, comfort, solace and even empowerment it isn’t always easy to get back to it.
I sat there and realized I’ve been doing the same thing. Over thinking. It’s easy when you’re someone who needs order and control. You start to analyze, inspect and plan for things so much you miss the point of what you’re doing.
I have been writing my Blog for a little over 5 years now. It started out as an outlet for the thoughts of a stay at home mom who missed adult interaction. I saw it as a place to place my words and find support and feedback. It was amazing! I was able to not only find a release for my creative side through my writing but a platform for the minister in me. I was able to share inspiration and spiritual encouragement right here on my site.
Yet somewhere along this journey I began to hold back. To restrain my words and thoughts to those that were surface level only. I started to fear speaking from the heart. I didn’t want to let too much out or too many in.
I began to overthink. To plan every word. Structure every sentence to be perfect. I stopped releasing the things that started me on this journey in the first place. Instead of my words coming from my heart they came from that logical side of me – the one that was always in control and didn’t let things get to her.
That needs to change. I’ve known it for some time now. I have been ignoring and suppressing something that’s such a major part of me. I can’t keep doing that. I need to let go again. To write freely. Allow myself to forget the structure when the words need to simply flow.
As we talked we both shared how we feel a responsibility to share our stories – our testimonies with others. I’ve always felt that your testimony can be the glimmer of hope someone else may need to realize they can come through it too. Letting someone else see there’s another side to the bad.
How many times have I held back and perhaps missed out on sharing that hope? Too many.
This post is my first step back. Baby steps right? The first way I’m beginning to make my way back to sharing from the heart. To finding a balance between who I am and who I am meant to be.
If you’re new here or want to learn a bit more about me feel free to check Finding My True Path out a series I started a while back to share a bit of how I became who I am. It’s unfinished and part of learning how to get back to sharing from the heart is finishing it.
Have you ever held back on being all of who you are?
If so, how did you get back to living from the heart?
“Believe in yourself, your passions, and your dreams. Your voice is unique – build on that. Embrace what is different about you and make it your greatest asset!”
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