I’ve been thinking a lot lately on how my weeks have gone by
Gone past me really without my knowing why.
I know that I’ve been there, been involved had my part
I’ve bought the gifts, planned the parties, baked dishes from the start.
So why this pause and feeling of disconnect?
Is there something I missed some small piece of neglect?
I watch as my children all play,
They laugh they giggle they are my children I love them in every way
In my heart I feel absent always too busy to join in on the fun.
Yet why? Why can’t I pull down my barrier and be a part of their one?
One family one joy one ball of laughter…
My Hubby seems to fall naturally into that excitement they’re after.
Yet for me it’s a struggle… a pull… a fight.
I much rather organize and plan than have a pillow fight.
I’m Momma – they love me I know
But when they want to have fun it’s to Daddy they go.
They run to him and scream “Daddy let’s play!”
But to me these words they never say.
Does it hurt I’m not sure since play for me is not my thing
But oh how I’d love to hear those words to me at times them sing.
I’m Momma – I plan..I do… I take care
But why does the fun for me seem so far and never near?
This is what I’ve been thinking as the Holiday draws nigh…
Maybe I need to step outside myself and jump in on their natural high?
So what I don’t feel I am the playful type…
My Kiddies still love me and that beats all the hype.
This time I will crawl… I will run… I will laugh until I cry
After all, these are the days I’ll never get back once they’ve gone by
I need to stop looking on and start being a part
Who says Momma’s no fun? Who says she can’t start?
Oh yeah, I’ve been thinking…!
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I love this. Hubby's the fun one over at our place too. 😉 When my son says, "Let's Play," I break out a board game. When he says it to dad, dad's running, jumping, falling on the ground to hide from the spy (my son, of course), etc. Two def. different ideas of fun, and my son likes board games, but he loves the latter far better. 😉 Thank you for linking to Super Sunday Sync.
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Yup that\’s sounds a bit like my home as well…My idea of fun is like great art projects or books or an awesome movie…LOL Thank you so much for hosting! Happy Holidays 😀
I play, I laugh & have fun with my daughter but she still prefers daddy to me. This is a wonderful poem & you are right they do love you.
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I\’m sure she loves you both equally…I think sometimes our kids just relate to certain parents a bit more…maybe personality similarities or even differences? Thank you so much….I know they do 🙂 Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
What a wonderful poem! I think a lot of moms feel that way. Dad is always looked at as the playful one. I often have to remind myself to focus on the time, stop working, and just spend time with my son. I think working from home makes it even harder for some of us too. 😉 Thanks for linking up at The Blogging Bunch's Saturday Showoff linky party!
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Thanks so much! It does seem to be role specific…Mom takes care of stuff and Dad plays. I know my Hubby works hard to provide our home and make it possible for me to be a SAHM but it does seem like he can go to his playful place so much easier than I. I\’m trying to learn though… 😉 Thank you and thanks for the spotlight this week 😀
This is so lovely and well written! I believe this to be true for many moms especially those of us who are stay at home moms. We tend to try and keep up the home on our own. That takes alot of time out of our day as there is always something to do. I have stepped back quite a bit lately. While my home may not be spotless or fully organized most of the time I now have more time for my little ones and that makes me more happy. Sometimes we have to let things go. Otherwise what’s really important to us will slip by us.
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Thank you! I think being a SAHM plays a big part in it as well…you\’re right we are so focused on simply maintaining the household \’play\’ doesn\’t always take priority. We tend to forget how important that can be. I\’m trying to put it back at the top of the list 🙂
I’m the fun playful parent in our house. It’s great but there are some disadvantages. I can not count the number of times I’ve had a busted lip from playing with my kids. They play rough and I’m usually the one that gets hurt. I also burned dinner today, because I started playing with my son and forgot all about my food. Sometimes I have too much with my kids and don’t get much done.
Haha! Yeah my Hubby has had a few close calls and bruises when it came to their fun time as well…that part I don’t envy so much! LOL 😀
Awww, I'm probably not the fun one too. But I've learned to spend time laughing with kid and learning when he wants to play with me and get my attention. I feel guilty if I become so stiff and just take care of planning and organizing. You're right, we need to seize the moment because we can never get them back anymore. 🙂
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Yes, it’s finding the moments that matter. We may not be the ‘fun one’ but catching those moments when we can and making memories is what really counts! 😀 Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
I love this!! I think moms somehow become the "serious" parent who organizes & plans while dad is more carefree and fly by the seat of his pants within his approach to parenting. I think what it all boils down to is that as moms we take ourselves way too serious sometimes and feel like there needs to be more structure (I'm guilty of this) but I'm learning my kids fondest memories so far are made up of the most chaotic and fun times we've experienced as a family. I'm not saying I'm going to stop being the "serious" one but I want them to know I can be fun & carefree too. . .at least I think I can 😉 Merry Christmas Tiffany!
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Thanks! Exactly! I am always so concerned with making sure everything is running smoothly: appointments kept, schedules maintained, house cleaned…etc fun just doesn\’t seem to fit in there all the time. Daddy has his worries but seems more able to release them than me…well I\’m gonna try and change that a bit…LOL 😀 Merry Christmas to you and yours Tracie!
Don't beat yourself up Mama!
I believe as bloggers we all come to this post, the guilty mom post.
I've been trying to make sure I don't take a day for granted and with this move, I really having been trying to make everyday about the kids. My blog has been slightly neglected and I do feel a bit guilty about that too. Nonetheless, family wins… I know it does for you too. You seem like such a fun, loving, and giving Mama… I don't imagine your babies resent you or think you're not fun at all…
Enjoy your Holidays!!
XOXO
Thanks Lovie! I try not to most days but I was just having a moment when I was watching them play…I always say \’that\’s just not me\’ but then I started wondering why? Was it because I can\’t be that person or because I choose not to be? I wasn\’t sure. So i figure I will try TO Be and see how I do…LOL 😀
Love Ya Bunches…Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! xoxoxoxo
A poem! I love it! I'm in the same boat as you…i'm not really the playful mom, I'm more of a planner, ouchie kisser, and cuddler. I leave the roughhousing to my husband. I agree, I need to jump in every once in awhile and play with them while they are still little. I still can't get over that it was a poem. Awesomesauce, Mrs. Tee!
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Thanks! 😀 I love writing poetry but there are times I’m not sure my Readers will be receptive to it. I may bring it out more often…I think at times my words flow a bit more freely with poetry…no restraints or grammar and punctuation restrictions…LOL 😉
Thanks so much for the share love and support! xoxoxo
I already know I'm not the fun parent. I'm always cooking, cleaning or teaching. In an effort to have more fun with my children I have stepped away from being so active on my computer. Blogging can take up a lot time. Writing your posts, sharing other's content participating in hops and reading/commenting on other's blogs. When I realized that a lot of my free time was being spent on the computer I had to take a step back.
We have been having a great time together and my daughter has started asking to play with me more often now. It's great!!!
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Haha! I know it too. I have never been that rool on the floor play fort kinda person. I wasn’t even that kinda kid but I dunno I guess I want to change that image of myself in my Kiddies eyes.
You’re right! Blogging can take on a life of it’s own if not careful. I was always the one DOing before my blog and now even more so but i try to set certain times for it when my Kiddies are at school, napping, sleeping etc to try and avoid that being the reason for the ‘no fun’ Momma 😀
The one ‘play’ we always connect on is video games…i guess that’s because I’m a nerdgirl at heart…so we have gotten a bunch of games for the holiday break and we are about to Go In! 😀 Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to you!
I have a hard time being the "fun" parent, too. But if you make yourself take that time, and you sit down on the floor with them, and reach for your silly side, you will find that the fun will come to you.
Exactly. I think it comes from as a child I was raised as an only child so a lot of my fun was just me and books. So play wasn\’t something that happened often. I just don\’t know how…LOL But learning it is SO worth it! 😀 Thanks for coming by 🙂 happy Holidays & Happy New Year!
This! I’m right there with you. This past year has flown by and it breaks my heart because it was my last baby’s first year of life. I’m really going to miss having a baby around.
I’ve been working diligently on living in the moment so I don’t miss the small things I may never get back.
I hope you have a Merry Christmas and blessed 2014!
Yes! It’s like when you get a minute to breath you realize you’ve missed so many more minutes! I am trying to take this Holiday time this week to purposefully pause and enjoy the moments. Merry Christmas to you and yours as well! Happy New Year!