I’ve seen several posts lately with a ‘Stream of Consciousness‘ based theme. Where you write simply for the sake of getting out whatever is filling your head at the moment. This is exactly what I need for today. A day when I woke up feeling like I was being overwhelmed from every side and in nearly every way. All I keep asking myself is Why Now?
Why Now?
I shared recently how I have been trying to find my way back to my foundation. To my fellowship with God. I have been to church for 2 weeks in a row now and I feel the results. Yet at the same time it seems as if all that was going well and smoothly prior is now in a state of disruption. The things I was taking for granted as being okay are not – well – not okay.
Today it all seemed to come to that often verbalized ‘head’. My day began with stress and seemed to just flow into more stress with every passing hour. I sit here now trying to fight off a migraine of epic proporations and still be the Mom I need to be. This means running errands, keeping appointments and playing taxi to my Kiddies as they start up their once again active school year lives.
So where do I come in? When do I get to actually deal with the feelings I am having? I’m not sure. I’m honestly a bit confused by it all. The situations that are coming to play are ones I felt were passing. I now realize it isn’t going to be that easy. They need to be dealt with and that dealing may not be what I expect or even want.
As I sat today waiting during one of my errands I wrote this:
How do you deal with the imperfect days?
“Believe in yourself, your passions, and your dreams. Your voice is unique – build on that. Embrace what is different about you and make it your greatest asset!”
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